Monday, January 24, 2011


I've been fending off feeling emotional about the chaos going on in life around me.  You know what they say, when you stuff your emotions, stuff, stuff, stuff- eventually there is an explosion.  I am on the brink of said explosion.  I can feel my vat of emotions getting dangerously full.  It's like a generously filled martini, don't tip it and pay close attention to it or else suffer a spill.

Ohh, martinis.....quick fix?  Or more stuffing....

Ugh.  I dread crying.  Not the happy, "Oh, my goodness!  She's walking!" kind of crying.  Nope.  I dread the sadness and hopelessness.  I dread the swollen head feeling and boogery nose.  Then, when I go to brush my teeth, I dread seeing myself in the mirror all puffy, blotchy, unrecognizable.

I may be unavailable later on tonight.  I am scheduling a melt down from 10-10:30 and I am setting my timer to make sure I don't get sucked down into the black hole of anguish.  Please don't worry about me.  I just need to get it out of my system.



  1. I'm sending virtual hugs your way. (((hugs))) Letting yourself feel all those emotions is never easy or pretty but it needs to be done. Just remember that you are surrounded by people who love you and how absolutely awesome your life is even with the bumps in the road.