I've been fending off feeling emotional about the chaos going on in life around me. You know what they say, when you stuff your emotions, stuff, stuff, stuff- eventually there is an explosion. I am on the brink of said explosion. I can feel my vat of emotions getting dangerously full. It's like a generously filled martini, don't tip it and pay close attention to it or else suffer a spill.
Ohh, martinis.....quick fix? Or more stuffing....
Ugh. I dread crying. Not the happy, "Oh, my goodness! She's walking!" kind of crying. Nope. I dread the sadness and hopelessness. I dread the swollen head feeling and boogery nose. Then, when I go to brush my teeth, I dread seeing myself in the mirror all puffy, blotchy, unrecognizable.
I may be unavailable later on tonight. I am scheduling a melt down from 10-10:30 and I am setting my timer to make sure I don't get sucked down into the black hole of anguish. Please don't worry about me. I just need to get it out of my system.